"TWO ICE CREAMS"

And I am done.

Well, what can I say? It was really hard to do. I'm still really tired.

All I know is that I'm glad that this year is done so far. I feel that all of the virtues I needed to practice have gotten better, while I still got worse a little bit everywhere else.

I don't know.

But I'm really happy that Christmas came after what feels like ten years. I may or may not relax on my virtues for a little bit, but I'm going to enjoy my weekend really well.

Welp, thanks everyone.

Happy holidays.

"I can't understand anything."

"And so this is Christmas. And what have you done?"

Yep. It's almost the break. Thank goodness, I'm starting to go senile. 

I may have misunderstood, but I think this is the last post (I just double checked, I'm wrong). Looking back I think I have improved a little, but not intentionally. I learned to talk to people but in all honesty, I think I lost a little something as well. 

The idea of this experiment was for me to become a starfish. Talk to people. Think less. And I did. But in doing so I also exceeded what I wanted to do too far. I lost track and before you know it, I'm not a starfish. I'm a sponge.

I should have suspected this a while back. I was stealing people's jokes, topics of conversation, and all these other things. But in doing so I became a sponge. I'm over saturated. I need to take a little time to become the old me a little bit.

I don't know. I'm trying. So that's good.

"But I was looking for ME the whole time! It's the perfect crime!"

The most amazing creature, drawn by yours truly.

Things have been a bit difficult, but I think I found a revelation. All of my problems, my disorganization, overthinking, stress, everything, is all internal. It's making  a bit of sense. I'm starting to realize how I can improve. I'm saying maybe if I start really trying to starfish, in that I must stop thinking, I can become the best person I can.

I'm not going to lie, I get a bit nervous around people. I feel a bit inferior to some of them, and to others I feel like a sort of bad friend. I don't know. That's why I like to be quiet. I'm quite a bit nervous, and I think something happened in my development where I have a bit of trouble reaching out to people. But I feel a bit more like a sponge now, soaking in everything, everyone, all this information. I'm bloody dry. I need to absorb more people.

But I want to absorb the right people. And as of right now, I feel like an access to an endless universe at my fingertips is kind of making this hard. And homework. That really throws a wrench in everything.

But I'm getting better. I can feel it.

I mean, I have the confidence to post this beautiful painting on my blog.

See you later.











"Let me take you down,
Cause I'm going to,
Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real.
And nothing to get hung about!
Strawberry Fields Forever."

"I gotta get back to crusting the crab."

I am currently writing this from a hotel room in Sarasota, so I am unable to supply a picture for today. Deepest apologies.

Well, I have a UN committee tomorrow, and this should be a good test of virtues. I think it'll be fun. I'm going to do good I think. I can easily talk to people. I can get work done pretty fast, and I could come up with things very fast. I'm just going to try to be friendly and hopefully that works.

I always get a little anxious before these events. I don't know why. Everyone there is just a person. They equally don't know me. It'll be fine.

Welp, I hope you all have a good weekend. I think I'm going to.

"A Doughnut?"

Hope you all had a good holiday.

So, Thanksgiving happened. It was fun, and I ate about 15 pounds of food.

But I'm really glad that the school week was really short. I finally got an opportunity to relax after what seemed like five weeks. (over the course of three days). I am currently trying to get my work done early, to little success. But I have been thinking a lot more recently. I'm not sure why, but I think it's because my brain is actually functioning again without having to think about Euclidean geometry, or how to say "hard dirty" in Greek.

So, there's nothing else that I have to say. I'm still trying.

Happy weekend everyone.

"Flooooooring"

Well, this week has been as painful as it can.
The closest I can get to it is that my brain's arms and legs are being pulled off, and then regrown with worse legs and arms. It has been difficult to say the least.

So, I let my guard down for a little, and came back to school getting a %20 on a greek quiz. So that was fun.

I feel that whenever I relax just a little bit, all my work on organization and all that jazz immediately crumble. I'm starting to believe that I have no time to do anything but work anymore. The days stretch really long to the point where I can't separate a day from a week anymore.

Otherwise, I'm just doing fine. I'm not thinking very much, and I have gotten a lot more confident.

I'll just do me.

Wait a second, this isn't Patrick.

"No, Spongebob. That's Italian."

My secret to every model UN conference is to go in there knowing that other people are probably better than me. That way, you just enjoy yourself the whole time instead of being anxious. But that's just me, and other people have their own formulas, which I respect. I really do.

So as you can probably assume, we had a UN event today. It felt really short, but it was off for lack of a better word. We pretty much had a very long lunch all day, but I enjoyed it. It gave me the opportunity to talk to a bunch of people and learn how to be more friendly.

At the end of the day, I like these events because it lets me relax a little. I get to see how other people are doing and actually talk to them casually, while still being in a professional setting. I get to become more confident, and I feel good about it because everyone's in the same boat as you are.

Well, things kind of went south at the end. If you see Juan's post, he'll probably explain it. He should.

"Debate"

"You guys talk funny! Say more words!"

As normal weeks go, this was a pretty normal week. Nothing happened. At all.

We are getting prepared for the big event, Greek night, and since I can't dance, I'm mainly just recording the dances. I do say that they are doing a really good job. Even if I could dance, I would still be unable to match their skill.

Otherwise, I have seemed to master the skill of not thinking. I now never think practically at any point. It really helps, I feel a lot better, and I now feel like I can work on my communication skills.

But there is one minor problem: my bookbag. It nearly breaks my back every time I go to school, so now I am getting into the habit of not bringing all the unnecessary folders and books along with me, to make it a little easier to carry (and to be a little better organized).

Good luck to everyone tomorrow!

"Oh boy! 3 A.M.!"

zzzzzzzz

Well, I turned this in on time today. That's a win.

This has been one of the easiest weeks of the year. I don't know how it happened, but it seemed really relaxed.

Actually I do know why. It's the end of the semester. Good riddance.

I needed a good weekend, these last nine weeks have been painful. Very painful. A spike in difficulty from middle school. It's so difficult that I'm not questioning how I'm writing this with only two brain cells. I guess it makes me more like patrick in that sense.

That's also good because I think a lot less now. I've lost all reason to think. I also feel like this kind of forced me to be more organized. I feel like this is because all the work I have is a lot shorter, but more dense. It's just easier to manage.

Now since we have a three day weekend, I will thoroughly enjoy not thinking until 3 A.M. for an extra day. I will admit, staying up in a half asleep state is one of the better simple pleasures of life.

"I may be stupid, but I'm also dumb."

duuuuuhhhhhhhhhhh

Well, I'm an idiot.

I mean, everyone already knew that, but I am exceptionally idiotic today. The grading period is closing this week, and my brain is currently not functioning. First, I spent around five hours writing a paper that was due on Friday (only to realize it's due next week) and I had to take the PSAT earlier this week, so I'm still pretty tired from that. I think the good thing about this is that now since I used up all my brain power, I can't think too well, which is good, but also bad because I don't have too much time to do things because I was too disorganized. 

I've been trying to find time to read "How to Make Friends and Influence People" but I haven't had too much luck so far. 

My current stats read as follows:

Time management: ---

Organization: ----

Amount of thinking: -

Well, good luck to everyone surviving the last week.

"Roses are blue, violets are red, I have to use the bathroom."

The starfish creating an ingenious speech.

Good afternoon everyone. I'm sorry for being late, I was a bit preoccupied with a Model UN conference, and was unable to get home until seven at night today. 

Overall, it was a fun experience. I really don't like the FHSMUN conferences (which is the one I did this weekend) but you know, I thought I did pretty good this time around. I didn't win anything, but I sort of expected it at this point. But I feel this time that I really knew what I was doing, and that I could talk to people in a much more friendly way. So that's a win.

The one thing I really liked about this trip however, was the fact that I was able to watch high-definition Star Trek in my hotel room.

Now I'm going to sleep, it's been a long weekend.